First official message, here goes.
So, I just turned 20, less than 2 weeks ago, but I've never dated anyone seriously, ever. Some of my friends have steady relationships already, but I've never actually gone out with boys for more than a few weeks.
I say boys, because until recently, this seemed to be my only choice. For years, my parents and group of friends keep telling me how dating works, and I grew up thinking girls are supposed to date boys, because it's "normal". The plan was always, find a nice guy, get married and have kids.
But what if I find boys to be... not my type? I mean, I feel much closer to girls, I find them to be much more interesting.
What I'm saying is, I do enjoy my time with guys, but I feel that there's something missing. I've never asked a girl out before, but when I think about it, I find myself smiling.
I never thought I'd be so confused! Am I attracted to girls? Have I not found the right guy yet? I haven't told this to anyone, this is the first time I'm talking about how I feel, I don't even know anyone who's gay or lesbian so it's very difficult for me to relate.
So, how do you know who you are? Am I bisexual? Am I just telling myself I 'have' to like boys, when in fact, I'm a lesbian? I don't like feeling like this, it's very uncomfortable, and have no one to talk to about it